what am i thinking of???

days pass after days...
i am still waiting...why wouldn't you show yourself?
thinking of you is the most unbearable things in my life..
i'm the one who always take the initiative all this while..
i always find the opportunity to see you...
but we seems like stranger all the time...
why we not dare to chat?
we take a glance at each other..
is this the right way we communicate?
but my inbox will appeared your name after we met..
but why we always chat about something not related...
i wondered what is in mind?
who am i in your life?
nothing at all?or i am the one who live in her shadow?
if it is true...i don't wanna find you!!
not because of my pride but to let myself feel better without you...
but i will wait until you willing to find me...

What a funky day...

we decided to play badminton today...
haiya,when we reached the place the door locked...then we can't play..
so we go to Zhu's house...she teach us baked chocolate cookies..
wow...so nice...haha
we wanna make some alphabet cookies...yer...but the alphabet cookies and love shape cookies was terrible..haha
haiyo,then my baobei went back and brought back some cookies..haha
after baking we went to Zhu's room and brought Miao Miao along...haha
so sweeet..she so cute lo...felt like wanna hug her de..haha
Pui try to count how many times Garis Zai slapped by Miao Miao and Zhu..haha
then Pui also help me play viwawa...wow...with her skill from 3 drop to 2 but finally upgrade to 3 wor...haha
then we felt tired and went back...it is really nice to play with my frenz..haha
i enjoyed myself.haha
thanks my BaoBeix..

Dont run away even if you hate me...

i hate the person who ignore me...
run away from me...
escape from my sight...
i hate the feeling of facing this...
if you really hate me...just spit it out...
i can understand and i wont appear in your sigth..
i will run away from you as you always do...
pretend to be a stranger whenever i see you..
not interested to know about something related to you...
i dont mind hiding away from you,but i mind when i saw you hiding away from me..

do you know what is best friend?
playing with each other...talking..chatting...quarreling...fighting...
or the person you care the most doesn't include your lover and family...
the person who always share your sadness and happiness..
the person who always be there to help without asking anything in return...
you are the first person that comes to his/her mind before everyone else..
the person you willing to sacrifice for him/her...
the person you need when you're in trouble..
whatever he/she says means alot to you...
the person will hurt you alot when he/she betrays you...
the person you always trust..
the person who know you more,more than you know yourself..
so...do you have best friend??
a good friend can tell you what is the matter with you in a minute.he may not seem such a good friend after telling....

am i annoying???why everyone look like angry with me??
what i have done??please tell me..don't be quiet and say nothing just look at me like very angry...i really scare...and i really already try my best to d0 everything that i can...why it seems like i do wrong??i really miserable..please don't did this to me...really hurt my heart..you know i really care of what you think and what you do..but sometime i really cant understand what are you thinking of..and you just ignore me and leave me alone..do you know how i feel when you did this to me???
what i do for you just wanna you to be happy..every time i am worried about the next morning you turns into blue again...i really afraid to see you when you become unhappy...i really wish to see you smile everyday and play like mad everyday..at least you didn't look so down..
please tells me when you are not happy don't put everything in you heart and don't wanna vent out..you can choose to don't tell me if that is your secret at least you don't ignore me..

ThE pErSoN iN thE DaRknEsS...

Everyone enjoy their life??or suffers in their life???
suffering of love in their life..Is the most frequent things that happen..
My friend cried because of love and hurt because of love.i cant make him feel better even though i already console him..what can i do??i really confuse..i just can listen to the song he sang to me and do nothing to help him..listen to the romantic story he tells me to vent out his sadness..
i cried after listening,why??is he story touching me,or i can feel the pain he tells me??
i wish i can accompany him when his birthday that is coming soon..he really felt sad that he lost his girlfriend and have to celebrate alone on his birthday.i can go to sing with him and make him feel better..but i just can apologize to him that i cant go out on that day..."sorry"really sorry..
the memories in his mind cant disappeared easily...he still remind everything even though he didn't saw her..is that the power of love that just like a memory card can save the incident that had happened??and it can just be deleted when another more happy incident has occurs..when will the incident happen to delete my friend's mind??i really don't wanna him to recall the sad things that make him looks sad...please be happy and i miss your smile..look forward you will found that you are not the only person staying in the earth..

ThE pErSoN iN thE DaRknEsS...